• Ross McKeachie

The Big One


I don’t want to suffer

if I don’t have to.


But I crave the gifts

that suffering brings.


I’m scared

of the “big one” -

that life-changing event

forcing me into final surrender.


Ram Dass was a deeply spiritual man.

God touched him, blessed him

with a stroke -

and he was so surrendered to it.


I saw how he was

and I wanted that.


If there’s some way

to get soft,

transparent,

vulnerable -

without losing anything…


Nevermind.


Indulging childish wishes.